Make lemonade.
Thinking about the past couple of years I've come to realize that this phrase really applies to me. The fact that I didn't get into BYU, didn't get my Visa for Spain, etc. kind of proves this. Life just goes on. The things that I wish would happen and don't have a good reason for not happening. I got to go to Spain because I didn't get into BYU. I was able to be home when mom went through having cancer because I didn't get my Visa. Everything works out. I think that's the lesson I've been learning. If something doesn't go right stay positive because the Lord has better things for you.
So as much as nothing tragic has happened for me I'm gonna tell you about how my life plans got derailed. Again.
I feel like I kind of saw this coming. I didn't want to see it though so I ignored it. Friday as I said in my last post we went to the temple. Afterwards we went to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch and I had a good conversation with my pal Aldus. Talked about his mission and all the normal questions that go along with that. Then it was asked if I wanted to go on a mission.
My answer was probably not. This is actually something I've been struggling with recently. As of late it feels like literally everyone has been asking, "are you planning on going on a mission?" and to be honest I'm pretty tired of hearing it. It's what everyone expects me to do. It's what everyone expects a young LDS single girl to do. I hate conforming to the expectations of the world. I refuse to do it. So going on a mission is something that if I'm going to do it I have to do it for my own reasons and not just because it's expected of me.
Fast forward to Saturday. The wedding was in Portland so we me and the parentals had a fun drive down. My parents don't lecture as they say but we often have conversations where they do most of the talking. Mom brought up the fact that I may not want to and she doesn't want me to cause she'll miss me but maybe I'm supposed to go on a mission as an example to my siblings. Dad said maybe it's to meet my husband. "Silly Daddy" - Jane
This didn't really make me think much more about it. I think it's the stubbornness I get from my parents. I mean I did think about. I do listen to my parents counsel. I'm not that bad of a teenager but I didn't have any big spiritual confirmation to it. Sorry that was a very contradictory paragraph. I'm sure you guys get it though.
Fast forward again to later that night at the reception. Aldus was asked to give a toast and in that speech he talked about how thanks to Johanna serving a mission and her example he is going to serve a mission. And then it did hit me. I'm supposed to serve a mission as an example to my brothers and sisters. Maybe my example will help them to find their reason for wanting to serve a mission. Stupid spiritually impressions.
As you can guess this ruined my plans for life. Again. I'm still not exactly sure what I'm going to do yet considering I just had this revelation on Saturday. However I'm thinking I'll probably work through the summer here in Utah and then go in the fall. I still got some praying to do though. But why wait? As I said as a kid I don't want to be an old maid when I get back. Now to just meet a bishop and start my papers.
But you know what despite having to figure out what I'm going to do next I'm really excited. I'm going to teach others about the gospel and hopefully bring them the joy of it. I'm going to be an example to my siblings. And hopefully I'll get to travel. Let's pray for foreign. jk jk.
Well I thought I better tell you people that I'm going on a mission. Till next time!
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